Inner Authority

Another term for inner authority is “Sovereignty”.  It means you are the king or queen of your castle.  You are self-determining and nobody makes your decisions for you.  You know what you want and what you are willing to sacrifice (pay or compromise) to get what you want.  

Inner authority is not something we’re taught.  In fact, it is discouraged, at least in Canada and likely throughout North America, probably Europe (anywhere where hierarchy and adherence to rules is the norm).  Children are taught to sit down, sit still, behave, be good, be nice.  Very few children actually want to do or be any of these things.  As young adults, we are taught to use our minds, to think, to plan for the (imaginary) future, to decide, to be practical.  But most tools we are given are outdated and irrelevant.  I would argue, that using our rational mind to make decisions, is itself, outdated.  We have better options now, options that bring us into our very hearts.

IMPORTANT DECISION? CONTACT ME.

We can see this lack of inner authority by the amount of repetition we encounter, everybody repeating the same thing, over and over again.  “We are all in this together”, for example.  I hear these words and I cringe.  Do we really believe that?  Aren’t there still homeless people begging for food, trying to scrape together a little bit just to survive?  Are we, collectively, actually ready and willing to do something for the marginalized?  Don’t most people shut down their hearts in order to walk by, unaffected? 

My inner authority dictates to me:  remain open-hearted and don’t believe everything you see or hear, especially when it’s on repeat.  I don’t get it perfect, but I’m not about to base my decisions on what everybody else is doing.  Nor am I going to base my decisions on fear, hatred or greed.  I’m going to take as long as I need to make my choices and nobody has the right to influence me.  That’s my inner sanctum, that’s my inner authority.  It means that I am the only one responsible for my life and that I am fully responsible to deal with every situation in my life, no exceptions.  This is the price of freedom.  This is the price of sovereignty.  

Signs that you are denying your inner authority:

• You find that people get you to do things that you really aren’t up for;
• You have become exhausted, doing everything for everybody;
• You are unsure of what you want;
• You have a difficult time making decisions;
• You find others take advantage of you;
• You have a hard time standing up for yourself;
• You have difficulty finding your place in life.

This is a Topic That needs some Attention

Whatever your thoughts or feelings on terminating a pregnancy,  the women that choose or are forced to go through this ordeal, still need support, understanding and compassion.  This is not an easy choice for anybody and the tissues will often hold onto events terminally.

Nobody is claiming that abortion or termination is a wonderful solution, and it is not my position to pass judgements.  Women make this hard and life-changing decision based on their circumstances, based on the quality of life their potential child might have.  And then, the action or event is often negated, forgotten and never spoken about again.  

As somebody who performs a great deal of physical examination and who is sensitive to the emotional and energetic patterns present in the tissues, I think it’s important for me to let women know that they will likely need some support, nurturance and tissue liberation after choosing to terminate.

What I have seen in women who have had abortions is varied from person to person.  Sometimes the pain lodges in the heart as a buried longing, sometimes it manifests in the mental field, sometimes physical changes take place within the uterus.  But for the woman trying to get pregnant after a termination (even from years in the past), I feel it is important that the uterus  is assessed for the emotional impact and scarring.

The uterus has its own function, purpose and desire/drive.  It’s not communicating any of this in an intellectual way, not with words.  The tissues have a very different kind of intelligence and expression.  The job of the uterus is to hold on and to nurture until the time is right.  A woman may rationally decide that a pregnancy needs to be terminated, or they may feel they don’t have a choice, but this does not mean that the tissues will be unaffected, even in the best of circumstances.

I have seen uteri in states of trauma years after an abortion.  The tissues in these instances are generally dense and tight and this is referring to the physical texture of the tissue itself.  It would be very difficult for a fertilized egg to nest into such an environment – it is impenetrable.  In it’s receptive state, the uterine lining is spongy, porous – this allows a fertilized egg some place to land, implant and grow.  And with a bit of skilled work this natural receptivity of the tissues can be returned.

This is not to imply that terminations always result in problems with implantation and I am certain implantation issues can exist even when there has never been a termination.   But this situation saddens my heart, especially when a couple deeply desires a child.  There can be so much guilt and shame and missed opportunities.  It doesn’t need to be this way.

If you find yourself in this situation, please reach out to me.

• So-called “Liver Function Tests”, do not actually check for the functioning of the liver.
• Some hormones are best checked at particular times of the day (.e.g TSH for thyroid)
• Some hormones are almost never checked, even when indicated (e.g. insulin).
• There are hundred of hormones, and millions of molecules in the human body.  Some are transient, we literally cannot test for everything.
• Consider the difference between deductive thinking and reductive reasoning and you will see the difference between labs and physical exam.

Blood Work vs. Physical Exam

I am a huge proponent of performing a thorough, old-fashioned physical exam.  And I take it one (or two) step(s) further.

1. Blood work and imaging can all be found normal despite there being a dysfunction easily found on physical exam.  I’ve seen this many times when I find a thyroid tumor or growth on a person with otherwise perfectly normal labs.
2. I perform a subtle physical exam where I check for functional movement relative to a particular tissue.  Function leads to assessment and assessment provides options for treatment.
3. Blood work checks for frank disease and is a means to diagnose.  Diagnosis dictates treatment.
4. When something shows up on blood work, it means the underlying process has been going on for some time.  Blood work will catch things, but often when past the point of being easily reversible.
5. The hands are several times more visually acute than the eyes.  For a trained and experience practitioner, the hands provide a visual interpretation of what is actually present.
6. The hands provide qualitative and quantitative measurements: size, shape, firmness, flexibility, movement, mobility, motility, vigour and more. Whereas, blood work provides one number which is then compared to an average; and an image provides a snapshot that needs to be interpreted without the benefit of knowing texture, mobility, flexibility, energy or motility.